my pride my life

most of us or at least me do really think that human are the most vulnerable creature.like me now although in holiday but life sort of meaningless a while.but hell this is wht i m dreaming 4 for all these while after the hectic study life of almost dunno how many mths non stop.but now u c i m damm free but still feel i should not go thorugh this type of life (crazy huh)
        another thing is that we will always think that we can get whatever we want as long as we work hard for it and tend to forget there are lots of things that we cannot achieve.i do think this way.Suddenly something happen and is not within my control.i try to think that i should pray to God instead.But there are times wher ei think God will not help only by us praying hard.Damm means if now i pray will It hear my prayer and grant 2 me whtever i m praying???????i dunno and dun even dare to think!!!!!!!
        now only i realise that human are actually very vulnerable in all sorts of way.I always think that if i work hard i can change my life.But b4 changing it there are so many thins need to be taken in consideration and in the end i think i will end up with life that alr plan for me instead of chasing my own dream.zit that easy to chase own dream without considering circumstances around u?????i dunno at least i can’t cus there are toom any things and too many hope been pile don me!!!!!!!!
        HUman always act tough (at least for me i m ), this is d mask that we wear in order ppl will not noe the real us and also 2 protect ownself.but lately been thinking tht this mask is making me more tired that ever.Can i jus put it down a while?????or let me at least breath a while without it.I am tired!!!!!!!Due to this mask everyone thought that i m d most tough person on earth and can depend on me whenever anythings happened.I am not ok!!!!!!! Sometimes i oso need someone to be there for me and not me always be there for others (thank God there are few ppl that guide me through the way) I am thankful for it. But pleas give me a chance to put down this mask and let ppl noe that i m not that though.
        So conclusion is that i think i have become a very vulnerable human at least for the time being!!!!!!!!!

at last the exam is over!!!!!
i m free as a bird now!!!!!!
But rite now y life for another 1 will be pointless since i dun need to think of anything and oso no asgn or tutorials tht need to be finished
but as usual there are always regret after the exam
ie:i should study more, i shouldn’t make stupid mistake (which i really did),if i was given more time to study(which there is enough time is jus tht i nvr utilised it as usual) and blah blah blah…………..
i do hope the result will be wht i expected or wht i hope since i cannot afford to slip down anymore ler no chance for me to de better again ler……….
another thing,went for an interview for the AG. its always my wish or can say tht my directino as to be a prosecutor but i m not sure whtr this is really the place i wanna b though
i m confused as to wht i wanna b in the future since each n evry1 of my family members think tht it is natural 4 me to practice after my graduation. sometimes feel like jus 2 put wht i wanna do aside n thn proceed with wht i should do or wht they expect me to be.
i noe i noe they r damm proud tht i will b a professional in 2 yrs time(wasai!!!!!)
but i m still not sure tht whtr tht is really wht i wan
(so question of the day:follow ur heart or be practical????)
wht do u think?????????
sometimes i would think tht it is better i practiced but sometimes whn i see the true about the practical life i would b vulnerable cus i m only a small potato but i was thinking like i wanna change the world(hahaahahah at least can do sth for the society,must be thinking too much)
but i do really think tht if u r paid to do sth u should hv do the best but wht if wht u do is not the best so would u still wan 2 accpet the money??????
jus too many things tht run through my mind now………..
but frankly i jus think tht this profession needs a lot of responsibility(not to say other profession dun  hv) but its jus tht a person’s faith is in ur hand.i dun wan to ruin a person’s life!!!!!!
nvm, will think of it more detail in this 1 yr n thn only make decision ler.