human = vulnerable
most of us or at least me do really think that human are the most vulnerable creature.like me now although in holiday but life sort of meaningless a while.but hell this is wht i m dreaming 4 for all these while after the hectic study life of almost dunno how many mths non stop.but now u c i m damm free but still feel i should not go thorugh this type of life (crazy huh)
another thing is that we will always think that we can get whatever we want as long as we work hard for it and tend to forget there are lots of things that we cannot achieve.i do think this way.Suddenly something happen and is not within my control.i try to think that i should pray to God instead.But there are times wher ei think God will not help only by us praying hard.Damm means if now i pray will It hear my prayer and grant 2 me whtever i m praying???????i dunno and dun even dare to think!!!!!!!
now only i realise that human are actually very vulnerable in all sorts of way.I always think that if i work hard i can change my life.But b4 changing it there are so many thins need to be taken in consideration and in the end i think i will end up with life that alr plan for me instead of chasing my own dream.zit that easy to chase own dream without considering circumstances around u?????i dunno at least i can’t cus there are toom any things and too many hope been pile don me!!!!!!!!
HUman always act tough (at least for me i m ), this is d mask that we wear in order ppl will not noe the real us and also 2 protect ownself.but lately been thinking tht this mask is making me more tired that ever.Can i jus put it down a while?????or let me at least breath a while without it.I am tired!!!!!!!Due to this mask everyone thought that i m d most tough person on earth and can depend on me whenever anythings happened.I am not ok!!!!!!! Sometimes i oso need someone to be there for me and not me always be there for others (thank God there are few ppl that guide me through the way) I am thankful for it. But pleas give me a chance to put down this mask and let ppl noe that i m not that though.
So conclusion is that i think i have become a very vulnerable human at least for the time being!!!!!!!!!
December 4th, 2006 at 1:24 am
hi..
ai ling here…
i read this posting of yours with interest.a few days have passed since you blogged about how you felt.i wonder how are you feeling now..
holidays are the time where we really think and reflect a lot, don’t we? this is probably due to the fact that we have nothing to do ya..thus, we can actually think about our life and its purpose or rather its lack of purpose.
i welcome that posting of yours because that showed the human side of you..a side that i have never really seen..
i am not sure what you are going through and i know i am not exactly a friend whom you will open up to
BUTTT…if there is any time that you need some one to talk to and the plp whom you usually rely on are not available, do contact me..
COSSS…this is the least i can do as a friend…
COSS…i identify with what you are going through at the moment or on the 29/11/2006.
let us talk about ‘life’ matters some time ya..:)
take care, gal.
December 8th, 2006 at 2:31 am
hey there,
i am sad to hear that your sister has a lump in her breast but i am glad that it is not cancerous. let me know the date of the surgery and how the operation went. let us pray that the operation will be smooth and without complications ya. i hope that your sis will be alright so that you can see how ‘wonderful’ ipoh is.haha..
anyway, i heard abt your trip to ipoh from siew mei but unfortunately, i will not be around as i will be visiting my sis then.
last but not least, i am glad that you are alright.
take care,
ai ling