my pride my life

in the 2nd week of my holiday
been doing lots of thinking lately
had a conversation with her the other day n she asked me wht is my dream???it knocked  my head so hard where i can feel "ouch"
at tht moment only i realize tht i actually have a dream and goal.
nvr been so clear of wht i wan in life b4
only till tht day i realized thti actually noe wht i want
n been denying it all these while cus afraid to achieve it; or shuld i said tht i nvr thought tht i will noe wht i wan???
dunno n confuse
but since now i noe wht i wht next step will be how do i achieve it????
since the day i signed the letter, i always asked myself whtr did i really made the right decision????
so many expectations throw on me
i dun wanna fail those ppl who has faith in me
everytime ppl keep telling me how good and capable i m. is just telling me tht i shuld do better next time
i m not sure me myself pilling up the pressure on myself or thts the reality
i noe i can’t please every1 but at least i wanna do sth which will make ppl proud of.
i hope i can n will gonna work my heart out to achieve tht
is all over again a new chapter of my  life so another whole new world is waiting for me
so new challenges which i will be better prepared than previously

Wow is been 4 month since the  last time i  wrote sth here
can u believe it???my 9 mths stint had end!!!!!!
today is my 1st day holiday
getting a bit laid back and doing nothing
sth which i din do for quite sometime
anyway some catch up
finish my chambering
been offered a place to work
sort of like finish a so-called project
wow!!i actually learned a lot during tis whole 9 mths n njoy every second of it though is always stressed and tired but in the end of the day i actually got to noe myself more
so will holiday for 3 weeks b4 i start another new chapter of my life
yeah baby…..can so call myself a legal associate now
haahahahaah
anyway was quite delighted with the whole process and be able to find sth i like which is great as well
though i noe more work to come and of cus as usual more stress to come
but tis time i noe i can do it cus i have been through a very hectic 9 mths indeed……
till thn will just chill n catch up with stuff tht i haven’t been doing since starting to work
ahahaahahaha
but still more things to come and will anticipate it even more
not really noe how long can i survive here but will try my best b4 decided to go different way
will definitely njoy tis short holiday cus after tis probably will face totally different environment thn again no time to chill…..