my pride my life

haahahah
can’t believe it tht exam finished 1 week ago
n now i m at home thinking wht is the next step for me
doing a lot of thinking lately
but still haven decide yet as 2 wht to do
though feel excited as wht install 4 me in d future ler
but still……….
i think now is look 4 d firm tht suit me d most n send my CV n c wht i can go frm there (hope i can get the firm of my choice ler)
beofre this boring working life it will b HOLIDAY!!!!!!
can’t wait for it sine this probably will b d last time tht we can hang out 2gether n talk abt everything
i hope we will hv good times there
as 4 my parents,i m glad they nvr pressure me as 2 whn 2 look for job but i noe they r quite anxious oso
but i hope i can land in 1 b4 end of july ler
ahahahahah
if i m lazy thn i might b longer ler thn
anyway i jus hope tht things will go as i thought especially my result
and 2 all my course mate,i hope we can graduate 2gehter n oso njoy d last holiday as much as possible n thn work!!!!!

I do believe tht time flies
is alr 4 yrs since i entered in2 uni
it seems like yesterday whn i 1st entered uni wif a reluctant heart n mind cus everything seem so new 2 me
even  thought of quitting bcus no 1 i noe was around wif me n oso such new environment
see i went through it n is all coming 2 an end alr
these 4 yrs there r happy n oso sad
but without these ppl i think i would not have made through
things tht i will nvr forget
1)    Joking around wif my gang of frens who stayed bside me       through thick n thin
2)    Ms CC,u will always b my laughing stock n keep it up dun       change cus tht is u n changing it will lose ur genuiness.will       not forget ur staircase incident n oso d redang                       incident.haahahahahah…ahahahah jus rmb tht another         thing is tht i m glad we pulled through our frenship (rmb         the incident happened in 1st yr??)i nvr thought tht we             could pulled through n remained as gd fren after                     tht.probably tht is d incident tht made our frenship goes         stronger.i promise such stupid misunderstanding willl not         happen again ya!!!!
3)    Ms Miko, d 1st fren i made in uni,will always rmb ur               sweetness n ur attitude.thks 4 everything.thks 4 being wif       me all these 4 yrs n oso helping me n stand my nagging           towards u all the time.will not forget u being by my side n       oso backing me up in whtever decision tht i made.
4)    Ms ALK,d 1st fren i made during d tutorial cls.Thks 4               helping me in whtever happened 2 me.u have been a               great fren hearing all my probs n oso tolerate wif my               attitude.way 2 go man.better faster look out 4 potential       guy ya.haahahah
5)    Ms Soo,hahahah we r getting closer day by day which i           think is rather strange but will not forget d jokes tht we           shared n oso d prob tht we shared during this 1 sem.we           better achieve our goal soon ya finding ‘the one’ n oso d           after chambering plan (dun forget)
6)    Ms.Alicia,thks 4 always participating in my joke,fun               having u as my fren n oso being a happening                           fren.hahahahah will nvr forget d jokes tht we created           2gether n oso those ppl tht we made them as our laughing
      stock.haahahahah
7)    Mr.Ben,thks 4 being a guy fren n d only guy in d                       gang,without u d gang would b different (i think).n oso           tolerate wif my attitude.getting shouted by me                         sometimes n oso being arrogant 2 u.will nvr forget times         whn i shouted n nagged u.ahahahahaha
8)    Finally,Ms.lee,we only got close like since 2 yrs ago.but         u really help me a lot (not forgetting my purse                         incident)i dunno how 2 express my gratitude 2 u.sad 2             noe tht u will b leaving.will nvr forget all those time tht         we chat n oso teasing each other n oso b by my side                 during d time i need support d most.will nvr forget u as         my fren.hope u will do well in whtever u will b doing in         future n dun forget me even whn u r not around
9)    Gossip on almost everything tht can b gossip

n to those tht i did not mentioned here, i will not forget u guys (jason) dun worry i will not forget u.keep in touch ya.nice being in this uni 4 4  yrs n learned a lot these yrs.i will rmb all tht i learned (not jus study matter).

is really going in2 d adult world 4 us ler.so no matter wht pls do not forget 2 keep in touch ya.

but b4 tht lets study hard 4 d up-coming exam n thn we really celebrate.n make it d best 1 cus it it will b d last exam in our life(probably)

haahahah
d previous blog was saying tht i would b having a plan but in the end it is canceled bcus most of us cannot make it so no point going only wif d few ppl a bit dull

next…….hmmmmmm this yr CNY a bit sad cus need 2 start cls on d 4th day of CNY which is 1st time in this 4 yrs start cls so early.means need 2 come bek frm hometown early ler.although nothing much 2 do there but since only go bek like twice a yr so i hope i could stay longer but too bad cannot.

another thing…..my fren said tht i should hv jot it down here is a conference tht we went the other day. really lots og thoughts coming out after d conference n oso visiting d exhibition.1st of all need 2 say bravo 2 those who set up d exhibition a really great job done cus it really makes most of us start thinking wht is goin on to this world(if not every1 thn at least me n my few frens of mine).it does not need 2 b very high tech in order to create tht effect all is need is those props n sound effect. i can still rmb d baby crying sound which made myself nearly cried plus d pics of d war torn country children.

oh ya d conference is abt war criminal  tribunal n commissioner and d exhibition is related to this topics.IN d conference they were discussing as 2 who contributed to the war tht happened in Iraq, Palestine,Afghanistan.d speakers were gd n oso can see some of those tht suferred during tht time b brave enough to come forward n share their experiences.

i start to think how do they go through their such life n can still be strong and oso how man can b so evil tht they can actually torture ppl tht are d same as them ie HUMAN.n still can b so proud of it.no regrets of it. i still rmb 1 of d statement which states tht if those ppl tht torture those prisoner is smelly thn no 1 would hv dare 2 sit next to those soldiers. quite true i can say……….

after discussion wif my fren thn she said tht man can b so evil n it is upon man as 2 whtr they wanted to b tht way.is jus tht we dun show off our evil side thts all.i totally agree wif her n i always agree wif some opinion tht although human had progress n develop frm time 2 time but human nature had nvr changd since d existence of it.we can turn into very barbaric once we r under some circumstance. jus look at d recent flood,every1 is alr suffering but there r still ppl taking advantage of those ppl n start looting whn they themselves r oso d victim.

tht is y i really think tht human can really do a lot of things n it is whtr we wanna do it.n oso human is mentally weak.we can b brianed wash jus like tht.cus i will nvr understand how could they torture ppl tht r same as them n b proud izit really under influence or wht i don’t noe!!!!!!but if so, who taught them to do so n should b proud n i nvr think tht war will bring victory cus so many innocent ppl dies although i read in all those treaties tht during war, we can nvr hurt those civilians but y izit all signed n nothing done.izit sign 4 d sake og signing.it is always d same thing once at wa d old,women n children are always d victim.

wht i wanna say is tht we should b grateful as 2 wht we hv now.i m reminding myself frm tht day onwards not 2 complain so many things cus if wanna complain i think those tht r in war should b complaining n not us.jus b grateful wif everything we hv now n think of those who r suffering in war whn we wanna complain thn we will realise tht how fortunate r we living in this world.i noe it is hard but we jus hv 2 try n rmb 2 pray for those suffering at d war cus they need more strength than any1 of us.God bless them.

Chinese New Year is d corner and in this 1 mth since new year i hv done quite a lot of stuffs
       
1st: i went to rain’s concert although it i snice but there r some things tht nearly made me blow.its all due to the organiser who suddenly changed the venue n still mix up as to the seatings. i was there for like 1/2 hours jus to look for my seats n nobody seems to noe bout it n d final solution seat anywhere u wan or should i said htey pointed me to a place which is actually extra seats.anyway i m fine cus the seats they pointed r actually not bad n make me had a better look at rain though.nothing much to b talked abt d concert except his nice danc emoce but still need to improve on his english ya if he still wanna breakthrough into the US market……..
 
      2nd:not wht i did but as 2 wht i experienced,suddenly there r few ppl tht leave our life although this ain’t ppl tht i noe or should i said tht they oso din noe me but still feel sad of their loss.i experienced this type of loss twice n til now i still think tht it is a cruel experience.it s jus a shock, i mean if d person is sick probably we hv this preparation but wht if tht he leave suddenly.i jus can’t imagine tht. saw all her best frens crying cus can’t accept tht she is gone 4 eva. this makes me wonder wht if 1 day 1 of my best fren leave me jus like tht wht will happen to me??????although i keep on telling myself tht we should treasure ppl tht r around us but human r always forgetful though,will only rmb it whn we really lost it.is jus sth we have 2 live wif it n oso b prepared.so i always remind myself tht i MUST appreciate ppl around me cus we nvr noe wht will happen d next second.
 
      3rd:went 4 a facial which i din really like n d product actually made my skin feel even worse now!!!!!hai……..i should not b those typical gal who will co coocoo whn noe tht it is cheap.hmmm…..thts woman’s nature?????hhahahahah i dunno at least i m ler.straight away signed up whn hear abt such promotion without thinking it suits my skin a not……..a bit regret but anyway i will b more hardworking to do d damage repair now on my skin.

       4th:ASSIGNMENT!!!!!!!sth tht i m working on,but i think i m well ahead of my plan n hope tht i could finish it b4 d due date.after tht its party time
    
   5th:planned a holiday trip b4 this CNy hopefully it will come true cus wanna rest n relax after 1 mth of study.haahahahahah again i m findinh excuse for myself to b lazy.

lately a fren told me tht she takes me as her mentor or should i say a perosn tht she look upon to. a bit shock after hearing it cus i nvr knew tht i m tht good.i always think tht i m an ordinary person n nothing much.but she said there is sth in me tht is special n even myself knew it but jus dun wanna admit it.i really hv no idea of wht she is talking abt ler.but i really thankful 4 her for reminding a lot of things n make me realise tht i m not useless after all n i hv lots of potential hehehehehheeh…….but i really wanna tell her tht i m glad 2 hv her as my fren n i will always rmb her although she think otherwise.but nvm time will prove.i hope i did not let her down after knowing the inner me after a few incident.

hmmmm……..did i really did a lot of things?????not sure lah but i feel like this 1 mth is a long mth n i experienced a lot n i think it is making b being a grown up.i think i m on my way 2 really becoming an adult day by day……….

happy new year to everyone!!!!!
hmm……wht should i say????
let’s get backward a bit:
       
new year eve:although it doesn’t go as plan but i still enjoy myself a lot (hope d others too especially d gals tht i asked them 2 join my other bunch of fren).although there is a hiccup which is my youngest sis admitted to the hospital but anyway she is fine rite now.so i m glad n appreciate everything.this eve is meaningful cus it will be my last yr celebrating it as a student(if nothing goes wrong) n really entering adulthood after this……so no regrets for celebrating it this way though cus it is meaningful

appreciating life:2006 been a rough yr especially the last few mths 4 me.but everything is fine now n i pray 4 a better yr in 2007.but it is due to these things tht makes me to appreciate life better n oso appreciate the ppl beside me cus u nvr noe wht will happen d next day.love all of them tht is around me.nvr thought tht i could be so helpless at a moment in tht time but i’ve go through it n i learned a lot frm it n i m still learning til now but frm there i pick up myself n make myself to be stronger.sadly my hometown is flooded n the hse is ruined now (not tht exactly ruined).so i hope my uncles they all r safe n b strong to built up d hse again n i really do not noe wht i can do 2 help them.

happy events:been to a couples of concert which i really enjoyed.n there r a few up-coming one which i m eargerly waiting.besides tht, mum jus got bek frm HK n bought me a CD which i wanted 4 some time.nvr thought tht she would buy it cus its actually out of my budget.she make d CD as my gift n ask 4 nothing which is good cus i m d 1 who asked her 2 buy n tht Cd actually went out of stock but eventually she found it though.n she done a great job this time n oso some t-shirts which suited my taste this time (thank god cus she always had different fashion taste than mine) but this time i luv them all.meet up wif ex-school mate n oso meeting new frens during d attachment n oso attended a wedding which i nvr thought i would.ya,my b’day celebration was meaningful.

new year resolution:hope everyone tht i luv is healthy n safe (i really mean it),i’ll be able 2 graduate wif all my coursemate,can really go 4 my graduation trip (still undecided where it should be),n blah blah blah too many to said it 1 by 1

jus read a fren’s blog about gals r attracted to bad guy
after finishing reading it i totally agreed wif it
jus look even whn we watched movie those bad guys we will think tht they r cool n even on those korean dramas those guy tht is not wif clean look or those tht r arrogant will tend to b more famous or liked by d gals!!!!
so i think it is a fact lah (dunno whtr other gals will agree wif me) at least 4 me i hv few frens tht always end up wif a wrong guy (or we called it bad guy) or will b attracted to bad guy at least i m 1 of them hahaahahahaah!!!!!!
anyway wht i m trying 2 say is tht is not tht the chemistry tht make us hooked to a bad guy but rather d mother instinct tht each n every gal had
we always tend to tell ourselve tht no matter how bad a guy is we can change them and will make him hv this undying love towards us where else it nvr came in2 picture n time after time we got hurt by them (although there might be percentage of those who r lucky)
not tht we dun like gd guys is jus tht we (or at least me) will always htink tht i hope i can find some1 tht i myself love 1 n not those tht live me more than i love him???understand?????
is jus tht we dunno how 2 appreciate things tht r around us.we always take things 4 granted!!!!i hv this experienced n i regretted it a lot n i tell myself if i ever met him again i will tell him d truth instead of hiding away.is jus whn he is around u will nvr appreciate it n until he left thn u noe he actually played n important role in ur life alr
So 2 all d gals out there,make sure u dun take a guy 4 granted n always think tht he has this duty 2 treat u good.remeber there is no duty 4 any1 in this world to treat u gd or can i say ’serve’ u.so appreciate wht u hv n nvr regret wif wht u hv done
as 4 those who r still attracted 2 bad guys, gd luck n keep on trying hard i jus say tht we cannt change but is not ‘impossible’ to change them.there is still hope so dun give up ya!!!!!

most of us or at least me do really think that human are the most vulnerable creature.like me now although in holiday but life sort of meaningless a while.but hell this is wht i m dreaming 4 for all these while after the hectic study life of almost dunno how many mths non stop.but now u c i m damm free but still feel i should not go thorugh this type of life (crazy huh)
        another thing is that we will always think that we can get whatever we want as long as we work hard for it and tend to forget there are lots of things that we cannot achieve.i do think this way.Suddenly something happen and is not within my control.i try to think that i should pray to God instead.But there are times wher ei think God will not help only by us praying hard.Damm means if now i pray will It hear my prayer and grant 2 me whtever i m praying???????i dunno and dun even dare to think!!!!!!!
        now only i realise that human are actually very vulnerable in all sorts of way.I always think that if i work hard i can change my life.But b4 changing it there are so many thins need to be taken in consideration and in the end i think i will end up with life that alr plan for me instead of chasing my own dream.zit that easy to chase own dream without considering circumstances around u?????i dunno at least i can’t cus there are toom any things and too many hope been pile don me!!!!!!!!
        HUman always act tough (at least for me i m ), this is d mask that we wear in order ppl will not noe the real us and also 2 protect ownself.but lately been thinking tht this mask is making me more tired that ever.Can i jus put it down a while?????or let me at least breath a while without it.I am tired!!!!!!!Due to this mask everyone thought that i m d most tough person on earth and can depend on me whenever anythings happened.I am not ok!!!!!!! Sometimes i oso need someone to be there for me and not me always be there for others (thank God there are few ppl that guide me through the way) I am thankful for it. But pleas give me a chance to put down this mask and let ppl noe that i m not that though.
        So conclusion is that i think i have become a very vulnerable human at least for the time being!!!!!!!!!

at last the exam is over!!!!!
i m free as a bird now!!!!!!
But rite now y life for another 1 will be pointless since i dun need to think of anything and oso no asgn or tutorials tht need to be finished
but as usual there are always regret after the exam
ie:i should study more, i shouldn’t make stupid mistake (which i really did),if i was given more time to study(which there is enough time is jus tht i nvr utilised it as usual) and blah blah blah…………..
i do hope the result will be wht i expected or wht i hope since i cannot afford to slip down anymore ler no chance for me to de better again ler……….
another thing,went for an interview for the AG. its always my wish or can say tht my directino as to be a prosecutor but i m not sure whtr this is really the place i wanna b though
i m confused as to wht i wanna b in the future since each n evry1 of my family members think tht it is natural 4 me to practice after my graduation. sometimes feel like jus 2 put wht i wanna do aside n thn proceed with wht i should do or wht they expect me to be.
i noe i noe they r damm proud tht i will b a professional in 2 yrs time(wasai!!!!!)
but i m still not sure tht whtr tht is really wht i wan
(so question of the day:follow ur heart or be practical????)
wht do u think?????????
sometimes i would think tht it is better i practiced but sometimes whn i see the true about the practical life i would b vulnerable cus i m only a small potato but i was thinking like i wanna change the world(hahaahahah at least can do sth for the society,must be thinking too much)
but i do really think tht if u r paid to do sth u should hv do the best but wht if wht u do is not the best so would u still wan 2 accpet the money??????
jus too many things tht run through my mind now………..
but frankly i jus think tht this profession needs a lot of responsibility(not to say other profession dun  hv) but its jus tht a person’s faith is in ur hand.i dun wan to ruin a person’s life!!!!!!
nvm, will think of it more detail in this 1 yr n thn only make decision ler.

yes, it is d end of d 1st semester (ie hectic n stressful semester).
i m delighted tht it is all over now!!!!i noe i noe exam is around d corner
nvm, let me at least jot down some of my feelings throughout this semester
lots of happy n sad things occur
ahmm….where should i start?????
happy things????ok i m still in 1 piece after this hectic semester, njoying all those subjects tht been taught at most important is the advocacy class. this cls really taught me a lot n make me realise tht being a lawyer is not tht easy especially whn ur client’s life is at ur hand. now i un y sometimes lawyer r called as d ‘bad ppl’. n of cus getting a funny lecturere 4 those boring time during the class.at least he can keep me awake sometimes hahahahh. 1last thing, i actually had a nnew close fren tht can actually shares so many things wif me n i m so grateful 2 her.really wanna thank her 4 all tht she had done 4 me without even thinking twice. i really owe her a lot n i will alsways rmb her.she is jus so nice. i can’t believe tht i can b so close wif her since we’ve been coursemate 4 almost 4 yrs. it is in this most impotant yrs tht she made me realise tht she is such a nice person.nit tht she is not is jus tht we nvr been so close b4 ler.
Sad things?????c lots of things n suddenly realise tht not everything can go as wht i wan it 2 b. n oso d spanish cls tht make me got a bit of dying desire of learning it.hahahahaha.Bsides tht, i oso realise tht it some tough situation u can actually c who ur true frens r n at certain time u really noe tht d only perosn u can count is urself n oso ur family members(at least some moral support). U can’t really count on anybody though, if not u r d 1 tht will die in d end or end up in frustration.N most improtant thing is tht, human do change all d time!!!!! u nvr noe whn they will change n will definitely caught u in surprise whnever they changed.it really make me sad though cus it is some1 tht i m close wif ya noe????
anyway after all these things, it will at least made me grow up (i hope) n will help me 2 treasure more things tht r bsides me n realise tht there r still a lot of things tht r awaiting 4 me 2 discover it ler. hahaha more surprise 4 d 2nd sem (probably)
i think d most imporant tht i noe is tht there can b very sarcastic ppl around u but they r not jus there 2 make ur life miserable but they r there 2 guide u n oso 2 nsure u tht u better buck up urself since u r not tht great either.
2 all my coursemate, i think we should forget all those grades n oso our uni ranking ler. lets njoy our uni life while we can n hv d BEST TIME OF OUR LIFE!!!!!!!!of cus ler try ur best 4 this up-coming exam.U GUYS ROCK MAN.PROUD 2 HV U ALL AS MY COURSEMATE  FOR 4 YRS!!!!!
NOT FORGETTING MY CLOSE PAL U GUYS NOE WHO U ALL R?lets njoy our time ya
HV FUN WIF D STUDY BREAK N THN WE CAN REALLY NJOY OUR LONG DESERVED HOLIDAY !!!!!!

hahahahaahaha

i m 23 alr (guess i m getting older)

believe it man i m even in my final yr and most of my friends had alr graduated ler

so what, i m still njoying my life though.

hear i would like to thank all my frens that celebrated wif me 4 my birthday.

hahahaahahah the korean food was nice and we should go n try again lah.

and oso for the surprise outing to my house

nvr thought it will be so touching lah.thought it wun be like tht 1 at least this is a special 1 this yr rite.

b’day wish: hmmm……..dunno ler.ya hope tht i can graduate by next yr wif all my womderful coursemates

thks 4 being wif me 4 these few yrs through thick and thin. i think i would nvr gone through it if not bcus of u guys(u all noe who u r) frenship 4 eva and i hope we will keep in touch even after we grad.go gals keep it up.

n 4 all other frens, thks 4 being in part of my life especially to some1 who i really misss so much (she is in US). hope tht she is fine there n keep on pursue her dream and ambition tht she always wanted.(go gal support u all d way)

at last, hai……..again need 2 study hard cus this will be d 1 last time to go through all d times in uni and oso EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!